Life at Atlanta – Part VI

A message from at 12:19pm about Dad, Lung Cancer. 3 responses.

Owing to the fast growing of tumors, my doctor suggested another chemo treatment with Alimta.  The drug, according to the studies, appeared to be a correct choice and was tolerable by most people.  Considering for temporary damage control while I was doing other adjustments, we rolled the dice and accepted the doctor’s suggestion.  The first shot was on 12/16/08.  Within 3 days, I started to have skin reactions, lower chest pain and suspecious low grade temperature.  Thinking of possible side effects, I ignored the symptoms and continued my practice of Zijiu, hoping to get used to within couple weeks.  In the mean time, my skin was getting so itchy that started to affect my concentration and practice time.

Three weeks later, just when I was about to get used to these effects, the scheduled second shot came on 1/6/09.  On 1/10/09, I ended up in an ER because of severe chest pain.  They took X-ray, ultrasound and CT, and found the tumors were even bigger than before, suggesting Alimta was doing nothing but destroying my body.  They gave me pain killer, prescribed me Hydromorphon and sent me home.  Before I went home, however, there was a low grade fever developing.  I continued to practice Zijiu with pain, but I could feel that my strength was no longer the same.  For about a week, the pain reached to a level that made my body shake during Zijiu practice.  So I decided to take Hydromorphon for relief.  Within minutes I felt warm and here came the low grade fever again.  I finally understood where the temperature came from when I left the ER on 1/10/09.  They did give me Hydromorphon through IV before sending me home.

The low grade fever was lingering around for about three weeks.  In mid-February, the left-over side effects of Alimta and Hydromorphon were finally disappearing but they already put me in a deeper hole with less body energy and strength.  A reasonable decision turned out to be a big mistake and I paid big price for a very tough lesson.  Now I have to face a bigger slope with less energy and strength.

P.S. We have decided to go back home.  That puts an end to this post.


Life at Atlanta – Part V

A message from at 9:11am about Dad, Lung Cancer. 2 responses.

The results of recent CT scan weren’t as expected.   While my lungs appeared clean, couple tumors in liver  were growing back fast and a few suspected new ones might have developed.   We reviewed  my life style and effectiveness of the work out in the past three months  and several deficiencies in areas of personality change and work out techniques were found.   First, my life style hasn’t changed much and I still have problems controlling my temper and anxiety.   During work out, my span of focus was short and the efficiency of cumulating energy was insufficient, partly because my ability to maintain motionless for a long time was low perhaps due to my hand tremor, insufficient strength of my  muscle and will.   Correction plans have been made.

This is a tough lesson learned and the timing isn’t good.   While the correction action is  taking its  time, here comes the winter, meaning uphill battle until next spring.   However, I have to keep moving forward.   This time there is no room for error.   I hope that everything works out fine and I can have better news to share next spring.


Life at Atlanta – Part IV

A message from at 8:45am about Dad, Lung Cancer. 3 responses.

Enough for the theory about the Zijiu method, now let me talk about myself.   My daily life here looks like this: wake up at about 8 or 9 AM for breakfast and then back to bed for 1 or 2 more hours if there is no other activity.   Then do some reading or record the progress of practice for self evaluation.   Then we will take a walk for about a mile  on the Yellow River campus of the institute before lunch.   After lunch, more reading and personal business before the afternoon  nap for 1 to 2 hours.   This usually takes us to about 5 PM.   Then do a little exercise, have dinner around 7 and prepare for the workout.

We typically arrive at the campus around 8:30 and prepare for the class.   On Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays we have general group discussion.   Everyone share with their experience, difficulties and problems and we’ll discuss and try to resolve them.   On  Tuedays and Thursdays, they will show tapes of previous teachings or Master’s Q&A sessions.   The content typically covers the health issues and their relationship with  one’s personality and daily life, and how to be a “good and healthy” person – not just consciously but subconsciously.   Saturday nights are reserved for Master’s Q&A.   On Sunday nights, there is a special small group discussion for cancer patients.   We talk about any special needs, share successful stories, and  cheer for each other.   The survivors  also share with us their experience and point out ways to success.   Every Thursday afternoon there is a group discussion about the theory of the  Zijiu method and chinese medicine.   The class typically ends at 9:30 and then we move to the Yellow River campus for warmups and the workout.   After 10, the workout begins.   All these teachings are free of charge.

I belong to the so-called “the 4-hour club” which currently has 8 members.   This group is composed of the most serious cancer patients – not just in physical conditions but also the will to get better, where the demands for quality and quantity (i.e. time) are the highest.   We practice for 4 hours.   The less serious group, with some survivors, practice for 3 hours.   For the rest, including some survivors, healthy people, patients’ families, etc, practice for 2 hours or less.   We typically arrive home around 2:30 in the morning, hit the bed and pass out.

I have made progress steadily.   When we got here in May, they described me as a “numb” person with a sad face, dull eyes and low voice (hard to  be heard),  no smile, and walking with difficulty.   In July, I was able to get through my daughter’s wedding.   Now my eyes are twinkling again and  my face is turning normal with  more shining  dark hair on my head.   My vocal cord which was damaged during the second chemo therapy is half recovered.   I’m able to sing again, although still with some difficulty in high notes.   Now I can sing for more than 10 seconds continuously with one breathe, compared to about 24 seconds before I got sick.   And I don’t have to yell to be heard.   This is a huge step.

A  mid-forty lady known as the “big sister”, who was one of the Master’s first students, occasionally will show up and cheer for us.   She is a very nice looking lady, full of energy and always wearing a smile.   She, looks like in early 30′s, is a general manager of a local company and have been with Master for 11 years.   According to her, she follows Master not because she has had any disease but is pursuing a healthy life.   Since she started, she discovered, through pains, many little problems in her body.   As she progressed, these problems went away one by one and she became a healthy person, not just in body but also in heart.   Since then, she has  never seen a doctor or taken any pill.   She is our role model.

Yellow River campus is a very beautiful place.   In front of the practice rooms, there is a brook.   Sometimes a crane and some ducks will stop by and several turtles will climb up a rock to enjoy sunshine.   Shu and I often sit on a flat rock at the shore to enjoy the peace and the beauty of nature.   I took some pictures.   Posted here are the scene of the brook, the room we practice Zijiu and one of our recent pictures taken by the swimming pool on the campus.   My next CT is scheduled on 9/25.   This will be the examine of my efforts.   Stay tuned.